When I was young, I was a complete novice when it came to love. I was full of expectations, but I always stumbled in love.
I still remember when I first entered college, I met Amin in a club activity. She had two dimples when she smiled and spoke in a soft and gentle voice, which immediately caught my attention. I was like I was possessed, always finding excuses to get close to her, helping her carry things and bringing her breakfast. After mustering up the courage to confess my feelings, she actually agreed. At that time, I felt that I was the happiest person in the world. He could hum a tune while walking.
But love is never smooth sailing. After spending some time together, problems emerged. I’m a carefree person, while she’s very sensitive. For instance, once on her birthday, I carefully prepared a gift, but because I forgot the time, I was an hour late. She burst into tears at that moment, and I foolishly thought it was just a little late. As for it, since then, The conflicts between us grew more and more frequent, and our quarrels became increasingly fierce. Every time we had a fight, I felt extremely wronged, thinking to myself, “I didn’t mean it. Why can’t we understand each other?” This relationship still ended in a breakup. During that period, I was listless all day long, thinking that love was a hurtful thing and never believed in it again.
Later, I take part in the work, understand XiaoYan, she is a very cheerful girl, with her, I feel alive again, we travel together, together in the street to eat barbecue, life that call a natural and unrestrained, but unexpectedly, the company suddenly go abroad on a business trip to send me half a year, my heart entanglements, while love is very not easy to meet, on one side, job opportunities, Xiaoyan was quite supportive of me, telling me to go at ease and waiting for me to come back.
I went to another place. At first, we video chatted every day, but gradually, our contact became less and less. When I came back after half a year, I found that she had someone else by her side. I was stunned at that moment. How could she change so suddenly? During that period, I was truly disheartened, thinking that love was simply unreliable and all a lie.
Just when I had completely given up on love, I met my current wife, Yueyue. That day, I was working at a coffee shop when it suddenly started raining heavily. She didn’t bring an umbrella and hid beside me. We started chatting like that and found that our interests and hobbies were quite similar. Later, we began dating and every time we met, we had endless things to talk about.
But there is still a shadow in my heart. I always worry that this relationship will end up like before without any result. Once, Yueyue was hospitalized due to illness. I was taking care of her in the hospital. Seeing her weak appearance, I suddenly realized that I couldn’t be so worried about gains and losses anymore. I had to love bravely and cherish the person in front of me. Since then, I have become more proactive and devoted more to maintaining our relationship.
We have gone through many things together, with both laughter and tears. But every difficulty has deepened our feelings. We have been married for three years and have our own little family. Our life is simple yet happy.
Looking back on my emotional experiences over the years, it’s like riding a roller coaster. Those failed relationships are like stumbling blocks in the darkness, causing me to fall very hard. But it is precisely these experiences that have taught me to grow and how to love. And Yueyue is like a beam of light, illuminating my dark emotional path and making me understand that true love requires dedication and courage to hold on to.